Lost and Found

Most people just dont treasure what they have, until they lost it.
And when they do find it again, they'll treasure it as much as they can.
But it's just too bad..it doesnt matter whether they find it again or not..usually they just take it for granted, and forgot about the value again sooner or later
Only when someone else remind us, what a treasure we have, we'll realize our mistake, and value our treasure even more
So reyka, maybe its not you creating problem, maybe its just your friend that need to be reminded that what a treasure to have you =D

May I know?

May i know..
What is the feeling inside u?
What do you regard me as??
How do you feel about me?
Nuisance?
Or no such a thing?
I often ask myself
But no answer arises..
Cos it is not supposed coming out from me
But you...
Answer, please?

Who am I for you???

Sometimes..
I dont know what you regard me as..
I concern about u
I care about u
But maybe
There is always no perfect timing
It end up..
Care becomes trouble
I know u're sick
I just want to know how u re doing
But end up..
I make trouble of myself
Who am I then for u???

My friend

I called my old friend yesterday. He just had his birthday on 22 Nov.. so.. I called him a little bit late to greet him "Happy Birthday". It's been quite a while we hadn't had a good chat. There were many things we were talking about, mostly about his personal things, such as looking for a job, family, his holiday in Hong Kong, etc.

We were talking about some other friends too. It's been almost 10 years since we graduated in high school (we were studying in the same junior and senior high school back then) and in almost 10 years my friend has not returned back to Jakarta (1998's tragedy, waiting for his PRs, etc.)

Fortunately I met him before in June 1999 in Sydney, where he studied at the uni there. He came to Singapore too in 2002 quietly.. and appeared like that in the food outlet where I worked as a surprise :)

I still remember, when I was in Beijing in year 1996, he just went to Sydney and wrote me quite number of letters (internet was not famous yet back then... and all communication were by letter or by public phone only... no hand phone too.. hehehe..).

I still remember when he told me he was moving to a new place with his grandma, and the place was damned dirty!!! It took him few days to clean everything... especially the toilet.. hehehe... *I think if he recalled this thing again, can make him vomit.. =P

Next year Chinese New Year I intend to go back to have a family reunion (which we do not have it often, perhaps.. once in every 3 years?) and he told me if he hadn't found any job yet, he wants to go back too..

Well.. it's not that I hope you won't get a job, buddy.. but.. I really hope that you can go back to your hometown and visit your parents, especially your father and look at the situation now (with so much changes around...)

A Twist of Fate

Yesterday I watched the musical theater show titled "A Twist of Fate"

Below is the story line:

In 1917 a baby is abandoned on the steps of the famous Raffles Hotel. A childless English couple finds the crying infant and sails away to England with the child in their arms.

In 1937, 20 years later, the orphaned Emma West discovers a gold hairpin among her adoptive father’s estate. She uncovers a secret that leads her to Singapore and into a web of conspiracy, deceit and love that stretches back in time and across oceans. Meanwhile, in Singapore, the house of Lim Chin Boon is in turmoil; the dying Master Lim receives a letter from a young lady who could well be his long-lost granddaughter; or is she part of an elaborate plot to steal his wealth?

In the tradition of Agatha Christie and the great “whodunits” of the 1930s, A Twist of Fate is a delicious comedy of twists and turns, false clues and dastardly deeds, set against the backdrop of a Peranakan family in Singapore. Dark and stormy nights, midnight rendezvous, an inconvenient murder or two, and memorable tunes make this an entertaining, suspense-filled evening at the theatre.

Stars Laura Michelle Kelly (Mary Poppins – Laurence Olivier Award Best Actress 2005). Lyrics by Laurence Olivier Award winner Anthony Drewe and music by Dick Lee. Book by Tony Petito and Steven Dexter. Voted Best Musical of 1997 by The Straits Times, A Twist of Fate is back again by popular demand – bigger and better.

It was held in Esplanade or so called "Gedung Durian" hehehe...

I went there lots of time but yesterday, it was my first time to watch the show inside the theater. The company that I work is one of the sponsors of the show and we were given tickets for the Gala premiere show. Quite numbers of my colleagues went there, some bring their spouse, partner, friend, or even parents.

We were seated at the top balcony (quite scary since it is the highest place), and strictly no photography inside the building...

For the first part of the show, I almost fell asleep since I was too tired these past few days. But after the break, everything was just fine.

I wonder how the stars having such a nice and strong voice for the whole performance. Were they recorded? Or was it coming out naturally? Anyway, I found them all so talented to memorize all the scripts and dances. If it were me.. I 'd faint already in the first part of my appearance then.. hahaha...

The show was started at 8pm and finish at 11pm with a 15-mins break in the middle.
I brought my sis and watched together with other colleagues too..

Reached home at 11.30pm, I was terribly tired then.. Take a shower, and having a phone call for a while.. then I went to sleep... What a tired week!!!

Me

Duno.. now not feeling well
But haven't died yet..
I am me, me equal to I
I have a very short tempered
Lots of victims 'kena'
They love me, but not my temper
hahaha...
I thought when u love some1, u must love the person as they are?
Good & bad..
But no matter what, they still love me..
and no matter what, i still love them too..
Just now, we fight
I think the distance is greater and greater
Still remember what the 'uncle' said
No matter how we tried..
as long as before the age
It won't succeed
well....
perhaps people learn from their mistakes
And i learnt a lot
about how the person is
what she/he is looking for
what she/he likes and dislikes
sweet words.. soften voice..
ahaha... seems like... make the story became reality
well, i should practice some too
but again, my short temper
i dun have that patience
Guess what?
should i find the 'lost' person?
Perhaps this person felt 'losing' me too?
Aniwae.. no use... attached 'liao'
huahahahaha.. and 'guai2 too', unlike me =p
Quoted from someone.. 'can drink, can eat too' huahahaha..
Kinda mumbling here..
But yeah.. just realise.. long time didnt see the 'lost' person
Buzy? seems like 'no fate' is the right words to use
Otherwise... my face has been red all the time..
Wow.. now sleepy... can find 'zzz' words in my brain..
I'm sick but I tried..
I was 'banged' but I didn't complain.. yet
Is this world fair enough??
Just now my cousin msged me
'Dun think too much'
seems like i very stress like that 'meh'?
Wow, so singlish, 'hor'?
K-lah, k-lah.. stop 'lah', before i got 'banged' again..
hahahahahha.. ciao mamamia

It wasn't that bad...

The revision classes have almost done, left one for tonite. Minutes by minutes, hours by hours.. Last weekend was really a complete torture. I am physically and mentally tired...

Yesterday evening, after the class, I had a dinner with my mom and the others at Marche. I ate a sumptuous dinner starting with soup, main course - sirloin steak w/ side dish of mashed potato and saute wild mashroom salad, and ended w/ dessert, which is crepes w/ custard and banana caramel plus strawberry ice cream and beverage of Erdinger.. hehehehe... What a complete meal!! This is one way to distress myself..

For last Saturday, after nite class, I ended my day by watching Toy Story II.

Now, I'm very very very very tired.. And after today, the rest is our own revision study... Lots of things to remember.. S162 loans to director, S157 director must act honestly and exercise reasonable diligence in discharge of his duties, and the rest that I can't remember.. hahahaha..

Then Donoghue Stevenson, law for negligence/tort, Re McArdle-Past consideration is no consideration and bla bla bla.. i think got more than hundred to remember?????

Yesterday after dinner, we went through the Orchard Rd, as if yesterday was Christmas Day.. Other than decoration and lighting, there were also Christmas musical along the road.. Almost every place was decorated or thematic w/ Christmas.

Feel like buying present for myself.. like clothes, or soft toys, but those are thick clothes - nice though- but not really suitable with the weather here.. as for soft toys.. there were too small or not nice to be hugged.. and so on.. havent got a suitable one.. yet. Maybe u wanna buy one for me?? hehehehehe... =D

Well.. get back to the biz... must pass the exam first, then think about what to buy for Christmas... Ciao

Raising children, nurturing talents

When I was about shredding the stacks of paper, I found one of it written by Mr. Liew from Capitaland, is about 'Raising Children, Nurturing Talents'.

He said, when he was flying to US, he was reading a book entitled "Authentic Leadership", written by Bill George, the CEO of Medtronic Inc. Bill writes that the best advice on raising children comes from Khalil Gibran, in "The Prophet":

Sir Alan Cockshaw, said this on raising our children:

"Give them roots,

Give them education,

And give them wings"

And Ho Ching, President & CEO of Singapore Technologies talked about her strategy for growth:

"Grow by letting go"

Mr Liew added:

"Nurturing talent in the organization, especially young ones, is like raising children. We must "let them go" so that they can find themselves and learn to define and reach their own limits. But like kite flying, we must still guide the flight upwards or at least provide enough anchor and support for them so they don't over reach their own capabilities. Need to let go and sometimes pull back. Some cannot manage beyond certain altitude or fight the strong wind , which they unwittingly challenged. The thiny string must surely stay, for cutting it too soon, or at all, may sometimes cause a premature end to their otherwise bright career."

So, how about you? How would you raise your children in the future???

 

Have u ever felt

'lonely'

when u need some1

that some1 happens not be available

or not even be reached

or be with u?

The time when u need it most

he/she is never around?

Or have u ever felt

u re not number one

but two, three or w/e

Other thing might be more important

or more precious

and u only get a little attention?

That's what I feel now

Educational Tour To Asia Pasific Breweries

Cheers!!!

Sounds cool huh??? Actually.. those who went there yesterday.. they were aiming for the last part of the tour only.. hahahahhaa........ It was organised by the company where I work :D

At 3.30pm the bus with 22 staffs left the hotel to the Singapore only beer manufacture company located at Tuas (western part of S'pore). We arrived there around 4pm and each of us changed our ID card to the pass for entry.

A guide came out not long after and started to tell us about the history of the place, which was located at Alexandra Rd before year 1930. Then we walked following her and stopped for few times to listen to what she said.

The company itself is 9-hectare size (equal to 9 football ground), a huge one.. and we only explored a small part of it. Started to where the malt, which is the main ingredient was cleaned and chosen, weighed to get the good quality one, imported from Australia and Europe. The machine was controlled using the computer system and handled by the staffs there, which is also a beer-tester.. quite interesting huh? But the guided told us already, they did not open any vacation for beer-tester yet.. hehehe..

We went through other containers where the malt was filtered, etc. Other ingredients are including hops (female one only), warm water, and yeast. The weather was soooo hot and no air-con till we arrived at the museum.

We passed through the packaging area, where we could see millions of cans were transferred through conveyer belt from one place to another, went through a process of pasteurization, etc. The bottling process is slower than the can since the bottle is easily to crack. So they did the bottle inspection before it can be used (washed, cleaned, checked, etc.). Since they are environmentally friendly, they use the recycle bottle as well. After that the guide said that the waste from malt were collected and be used for animals feeding, again, environmentally friendly.

We took a group pic, which supposed to take the Tiger as the mascot for the beer. But since it was a group photo, we couldn't see the tiger in the picture.. hahaha... After that, we went to the museum and finally, the Tavern.

The sofa provided was very comfortable, decorated uniquely as a cool and cosy place. We took our seats and started to go to the bar to take our beer. As a rule, we had to drink Tiger Beer for our first drink.. So.. everyone took the Tiger Beer for our first drink.

Well.. i guess the beer would be nice if it was served in a chilled glass.. but the person who served us deliberately gave us a normal temperature glass.. and gave exceptionally to person he knew the chilled glass one.. kinda disappointed, is it a kind of discrimination???

Anyway.. we were all with our drinks.. And I gulped down quickly the beer in less than 5 mins.. cos my goal is to have at least 4 glasses of it..:D

So, after the Tiger had finished, I chose to drink Heineken. We drank and chat at the same time while munching at our snacks. After that I took Corona, Heineken again, then 2 glasses of Erdinger, which total to 6 glasses. Just nice, we had to leave the place at 5.45pm. I was still fine.. and felt good.. But I really wanna pee when I was in a bus... Hahaha... So when the bus reaches the hotel, I was rushing to the toilet with my friend then we went back by MRT. We chatted all the way back.

Again, I was rushing to the toilet at the Hougang MRT, then I stopped by at the Pasar Malam to buy Taiwanese sausages (my favorite snacks), fried tofu - very nice one, and Prawn Vadei - Indian snacks, with big chillies. Still not enough, I went to KFC to buy two sets meal take away.. and took bus home.

Once reaching home.. my stomach was then really grumbling.. So I ate first before doing anything else, taking a bath, dried my hair, then fell to sleep till this morning.. hehehe.. A very nice experience!!! I'm loving it!!! :)

This morning.. my boss passed by and told me this.. 'I heard that you really can drink...' Oops.. hm.. a spy gossiper there.. Well, as long as I can drink and not drunk, I dun mind.. But what if I drank and drunk?? Wont my name be ruined in this whole company??? Anyway, who cares??? :D

Nothing is eternal in this world

So many things happened after the new one came. Lots of changes here and there. There is no more secure feelings. You can just receive the bad news any time.
If someone on top of u left, and replaced by someone you are not comfortable with, what will u do? Actually I found that my current position is quite nice, but I guess we must deal with changes, and therefore, we must be ready on whatever thing that will happen in the future.
Sad for some who is leaving.. but we still have to go on with our lives, haven't we? It's only a matter whether we can endure or give up and find another one. But another one, which place to go? Starting new place, new environment, new people, new policy, everything is new.. and may not as good as we are now *sigh..
Life o life..
Why are you so cruel?
I always believe in yuan fen, but then.. if there is no more fate between us, if it's not ours.. it's not ours then.... *sigh again...

limit of what we can take

yup..guess there's just a limit for each of us of how far we can take our stress, lmao
now, i guess i just really tired of my life..
office politic, love life, daily life...
really really tired..
there's just so much i want to do, but theres nothing i can do
just live life to the fullest, if we can that is
doesnt matter how far we try to live life to the fullest, all meaningless when we go home and realize how empty our life is
some people might get lucky..when they go home, they have someone waiting for them, and they have someone they've been waiting for to meet
those people really lucky, and should never ever lose it
but some people (read: me)
gee...whos waiting for them..who can they meet at home..who can they share with all their problems and tell them that everything gonna be alright..
only empty walls and computer answer them..and this blog
Peace!

Randy Travis - Somewhere in My Broken Heart

You made up your mind

It was time it was over

After we had come so far.

But I think there's enough pieces of forgiveness

Somewhere in my broken heart.

I would not have chosen

The road you have taken,

It has left us miles apart.

But I think I can still find the will to keep going,

Somewhere in my broken heart.

So find, go ahead and find it

Till you find out who you are,

Coz I,

Will keep my love unspoken

Somewhere in my broken heart.

I hope that in time you will find

What you long for,

Love that's writen in the stars.

And when you finally do,

I think you will see it

Somewhere in my broken heart

Padi - Menanti Sebuah Jawaban

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu

dan aku tak bisa menyetuh cintamu

seiring jejak kaki ku bergetar

aku tlah tepagut oleh cintamu

menelusuk hariku dengan harapan

namun kau masih terdiam membisu

sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu

mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu

setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu

menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu

betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwakus

emoga kau tahu isi hatiku

dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar

aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

Another part of life

Yesterday I had a dinner with my ex-Boss, just the two of us. After almost a year we finally met together again and there were lots of changes happening. In my eyes, she is a very strong woman, who needs to balance between work and family.

She understands what woman has been through.. I took a lot of her advices in life.. which i think is quite true. Such as.. in work.. we shouldn't give up easily, and take our experience as a lesson. It is never too late to learn, no matter how old we are now. And the most important is that we must be trust able and reliable in our work.. cos no matter what, people will look for someone who is trust able and reliable in the work, to work for them, no matter how old we are.. just take her as an example..

Well.. after having a nice dinner, we went back home. She even still remembered that my son's bday is coming soon and gave my son a red hong bao before we separated.

I slept at 11 pm yesterday and woke up at 7am this morning, and to find a Disney's photo frame on my table. It was a present from my sis-in-law who was just coming back from HK last nite (they arrived very late at nite, and I had slept by the time they reached home).

I was thinking to bring the frame to the office, but then.. my office table is too small to put such a large frame.. so.. haven't decided yet on where to put that frame.. =))) Thank you!

Well.. still have flu and sore throat.. thinking of seeing doctor later.. see then... write till here.. ciao

Only myself could help myself...

Hei.. ya.. how a ya?
Cant think of myself rite now..
I should think of my coming exam, just like anybody else do..
One month to go.. still lots to read..
Yesterday didnt feel well.. and tonite got appointment for dinner with my ex-Boss..
Hm.. should start study already..
Not really in mood.. but must go for it....
Well.. must concentrate in studying and forget about anything else then.. let the rest happy with themselves and I must struggle myself.. only myself can help myself.. nobody else would do..
So.. cant be selfish, ok?
Anyway.. exam is my choice.. this is my life that i ve chosen.. so.. no matter what the rest do while i am struggling, i still have to struggle.. let the rest be fun then...
Come on.. u can do that.. Jia you!!!

I am selfish, aren't I?

I want people to accompany me whenever I need, but I couldnt do the same thing for them..
I want people to talk to me whenever I am lonely, but sometimes I couldnt do the same..
I want people to accommodate me whenever I am sick, but I didnt do the same thing when they were in that condition..
I want people to please me.. but I always make them unhappy..
Am I selfish???
I am selfish, aren't I???

My best friend...

I just read her profile.. and it looks like that she was confusing with herself, just like any of us do.
I knew her during my study in Swiss. First time knew her from another guy, our best friend, and we travelled for the very first time together to Germany (9 of us), and I was the only one who could communicate in Chinese with her... We were in different class until our 4th year and we were in the same group for most of our projects..

I found a lot of commons between me and; her, especially regarding to our families and both of us love our father very much and have learnt a lot of principles in life from their own experiences. We were taught to be thrift or prudent with our money, not to waste it for unuseful things, to make use of our lives fully independently, to always love our family members no matter what.. and many more thinkings that both of us find it same.. That's why I feel comfortable in talking and chatting with her...

After graduating, we still keep in touch. She often comes here for holiday and we met together with other school friends.

Since she studied in Aussie, I found her a little bit closing her self.. til I have to push her little bit to tell me what was going on.. how was she... etc..

Like what she wrote on her profile.. I was having almost same personalities but not all with her.. The most difference we have is.. in our relationship with guy. She is still single now.. pretty.. while me.. I am no more single.. have one son and not as pretty as her.. hehehe..

Sometimes I feel more and more distance with her. If I didn't approach her, she wouldn't share her feelings with me.. Well, maybe it's her characteristics where she feels more comfortable with. Just hope that.. we always have that 'yuan fen' of being good friends till we old.. and die.. huehehe... :D

Tired...

Holiday has over.. now we are all going back to work again!!!

Today I have lots of things to prepare and all was given in one day.. I must know how to prioritize.

Yesterday I couldn't sleep.. Ready to sleep at 2am.. but I could only sleep around 3am. After that I woke up at 5.30am because my son was wetting (I forgot to put a diapers on him). Therefore, the bed was wet.

Then at 7am i woke up again and went to work.

My head is find, but my body is damn tired. Nowadays I have this panda eyes.. which I don't think I had before.

Later I will have lunch with my sister and her South Korean friend who visited Spore for only one nite and leave again tonight..

Tomorrow, I am going to have dinner with my ex-boss, just the two of us.. Not really know what I should say but I want to thank her for treating me very well during my last job and wonder how she is doing now.

This week and next week will be a very tiring week for me, especially next week. My mom is coming and I need to arrange thing for her. I'll have an education visit tour from the hotel (We're going to visit Tiger Beer factories. How exciting! Lolx!). After that I will have revision class non-stop from Fri nite, Sat aft to nite, Sun morning to evening, then Mon nite.. Oh, I wanna see how strong my body and mind will be... Just hope I can have a good health before the exam is coming..

Well.. that's my time table for a moment.. Update again next time... Ciao!

Easier to say than done

Hiks... Last weekend, yesterday.. never study.. hiks hiks hiks...
Always tell people that i will study during holiday.. but again.. easier to say than done.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....................... Exam comes in one month's time.. What have I done??? Nothing!!! hiks hiks hiks... Help!!!!