Mal a la tete

Recently I have this headache when I was working. Perhaps nothing much to do, and I ended up watching the computer monitor for almost a whole day and that's why this headache came =(((
Hope it's not something that bad.. *hopefully..
Always feel wanna take a rest once a week especially in the middle of the week
*sigh...
Well.. still 40 mins to go.. let me endure the rest of the day... =(

3 months to go

24 hours a day seems like never be enough.. now i know that kind of feeling...
Well.. now i'm taking 2 paper and plan to take two exams this June. Dunno whether I am prepared for it or not.. 'Cos the papers that I take combine both calculation and theory.. I hate theory.. =(((
Now only left 3 months before the exam. And every week I have to attend two classes each week, which is on Tuesday and Thursday, then there is workshop this upcoming Saturday and next Saturday (each from 2 to 6pm), and worst, I have to go to the dentist appointment, which needs few days to attend =(
Some Saturday and Sunday I have to come for the make up classes.. then there is my friend's daughter one-month celebration in one of the Sunday.. and to meet my friend who will come from Jakarta.. and many more.. And most importantly.. i have not enough time to play with my son.. =(((
Everytime I want to take leave, that's always on my mind.. But I want to save my leave for my long holiday.. =((( so.. endure and see how far can I go.. =P
Well.. just hope that there is always enough time for me to do this all and life won't be that stressfull to me...

It's a long way to go...

Yesterday the result came out for the last exam I took.. Fear.. deg deg deg.. but then.. I pass. The funny thing is that.. the results for my last three exams were all the same.. And I think the number came out at the 4D result last time.. hahahha.. too bad, i didnt buy.. or else I might win it.. hehehe..
The friend of mine has finally passed her paper too.. with a mark in border line.. 50 (five zero). I'm happy for her..
And another friend has finally finished all of his paper.. He's really good... And now he's working in a trading company earning lots of bucks..
For me.. it's still a long way to go.. sometimes I want to finish it faster.. but too bad.. I don't think I could cope with it.. Now, I just need to try...

UNWRITTEN (by Natasha Bedingfield)

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't livethat way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Bengong

Bengong...
Terbengong bengong daku
Tak tahu apa yang harus kulakukan
Sepi...
Tiada yang menghibur
Ada satu dua
Yang senasib bersama

Imagine

Beach
White sands
Listen to the wind
Wave blows
Good weather
Children's laughter
And I sit on the bench
Watching people playing a kite
The kite is flying in the sky high
At anytime big wind blows
Or other kite to clash
The kite will be gone
Got many choices
To cry over the flying kite
Or buy for a new one
Or just leave it and do something else and carry on with life
Feel like
Now I'm the one holding the kite

Note: Photo taken from http://seattle.about.com/library/gallery/blphotoORlincoln3.htm reprinted with permission of the Lincoln City Visitor & Convention Bureau

Contradiction

What people say may true
To love not always to have
and to have not always to love

Of course it would be better to have the one u love
But most of the time it would not be the case

What would you feel when u started losing someone u love?
No matter fast or slow, it will be gone one day
Some people want it slow, but some want it fast move
In the end both will go the same way

For me personally, I will be happy when someone I love is happy with his/her life
Doesn't mean that he/she must live together with me
Just to know that they are happy and continuing their life made me happy too (*liar.. hahahaha..) hm.. hm.. aiyah.. not really lah..
Imagine if I love 100 people, does that mean I have to live with 100 of them?? Non sense, rite?
=P

Well.. cannot be sad.. must cheer up.. and carry on with life
So many things to do..
Life is not always be miserable.. but to have fun too
Losing people you love is something that everyone will always face, me for example.. hahaha..
Clubbing once in a while.. Gathering with friends.. And most important thing.. to be too healthy is not a good idea.. hahaha... 'cos I will be left behind when I 'm old one day.. so.. since I'm not a full time smoker, I can have my liquor to make my life happier then... =))

Yeah.. just pile up my stock of Vodka
I have Original, Vanilla, Peach, Kurrant, Citron, and Raspberry, left the Orange one.
Dunno how many bottles have I finished previously. Still remember my favourite Malibu..
If I collect them, perhaps there were about my toilet size.. hahahaha...

There are many invitations this month.. Perhaps I need to join the crowd and donate some of my collection to the party.. haiheihiaheihaiehiae.... well.. perhaps... ;P

Back to reality...

This morning, when I woke up, felt like waking up from the dream. It's been a week since I left S'pore. Time went so fast when I was there and just don't want to return to the normal life.
So... we were celebrating new year in Jakarta. On our way from airport to home, I saw lots of fire crackers in the sky. The sounds were just never stop especially when it was near 12am midnite. I slept 2.30am that day, cos we normally pray first after the new year.
In the afternoon, lots of people came to our house continuously. Very crowded.. and that's the fun of it. Mostly my relatives. Lots of them have grown up and I couldn't even recognise who they are. Just like a magic change their appearances.
At nite we visited our uncle's house, then to home to take a rest.
On second day of new year, we went to Bandung. We planned to go throught the new highway - Cipularang highway - but since it was closed due to the broken construction, we went through the other way, which took longer. It was 20 of us taking 4 cars. We arrived around 2pm and directly went to Batagor Riri to have our late lunch there. Len's friend was there too with his son, and also my cousin who was on holiday there with her friends. After makan, we went to watch the Angklung show at Saung Ujang. It was quite expensive but worth to see. Other than just watching, we were also participated in playing it (each guest had one angklung to play with). After the 2hour show ended, we browsed around the handicraft shop and I managed to buy some souvenirs to my colleagues. We had small snacks while waiting the car to come - cakwe, cimung, tahu goreng.. hm... w/ chilli padi.. hot hot...
We went to Cafe Bali to have our dinner and to factory outlet to look look and see see.. =P It closed at 9pm, so we went to our hotel at Puteri Gunung Hotel, put our luggage, took a bath, and went out again to have supper.. (satay kambing, chicken satay, sayur asem soup, etc. etc.)
We went back and had a nice sleep afterward.. what a tiring day!!!
Next morning, we had our buffet breakfast at 7am before leaving to Vipassana Graha Temple at Lembang. It's been 10 years since my last trip there. There were few changes but I still recognised the place. I stayed there before for a week for studying Buddhism with my friends. What a wonderful experience I ever had.
After visiting it, we went back to hotel and waited my uncle to come back then left the hotel. We went around to look for a place where they sell a very cute and nice bagelan (dry crispy bread.. very nice and cheap.. only $2/box). Then we had our late lunch at Yoghurt Cisangkuy. Since it was already quite late, we didnt visit any fo anymore, but continued our journey to Puncak. We arrived there around 7pm and had our dinner at Bumi Aki - nice food and cheap too. Then to factory outlet there. There were lots of branded clothes with a much cheaper price than retail price. We bought quite lots of clothes - I managed to buy 1 long pant and 3/4 pant. It closed at 9.30pm, so we headed to my uncle's villa at Kota Bunga. The location was quite far, so we needed to be guided by the local there. It took lots of time to pack the things since I had to prepare it to be brought home the next morning by my brother who would go home at 5am from there. I think I slept at 12am.. nice sleep at a nice bed.
I woke up around 10am in the morning and packed stuffs again before heading back to Jakarta. My sis wanted to bring her children to Fantasy World (or Dufan - Dunia Fantasi) at Ancol, so all of us went there after visiting Ice World - also at Ancol. It was quite fun to play in Dufan. There were few new attractions to visit.. and since it was weekday, not many people queueing for the ride (saved our time too). We went till 6pm, then had our dinner at Pecenongan (ate Satay Babi). We went back home and slept...
On Thursday morning, we went to Mangga Dua & ITC for some shopping. After that my sis and I had a facial for two hours (i fell aslept there... hehehe..), then went to Mega Mal - the nearest mal from home - to browse around til nite time.
On Friday, we went to shop again at Artha Gading Mal - children played at Amazone till they drop - and had our lunch at a food court there. We went to Kelapa Gading Mal too - since it was nearby the MAG. We did not find much thing there.. My son slept accompanied by his father in one of the food shop while I browse around.
Then we left the place at 6.30pm to Hayam Wuruk. My aunt invited us for dinner there. Since we missed out one turn, we became the last who arrived there... After makan, again, we went to Mega M to shop and played bowling with my sis and her friends. We went back at 10pm and had a rest.
On Sat morning, my sis flew back to Hong Kong early in the morning. I managed to wake up and said good bye to her and her family and fell a slept again till 12pm in the afternoon. Then my friend asked me to meet up in his mother in law's resto. He supposed to pick me up at 2pm.. but.. he finally arrived at 3.30pm. (I hate Indonesian's rubber hour or 'jam karet'). So we had our late lunch there and chatted while eating.
After that he drived us home and I had a short break before having dinner with my father. At 10pm we went to Hard Rock Cafe to have a drink and dance. It was fun. We were there till 1am then we went through 'Taman Lawang' twice to see the 'aqua' there. Then to have Ropita. While eating, there were three pengamen who came to us and asked us what song for them to sing. My friend suggested them to sing 'TTM or Teman Tapi Mesra'. So.. not bad huh? Just for 20 cents we had a live performance.. =D
We went back home at 2.30am and I slept till again 12pm.. Now I realise.. I woke up late almost everyday.. wow.. We went to Mega M to shop the rest of the things and 2.30 pm we went back home and packed our things and went to airport to catch our 5pm flight. We arrived Singapore at 7.40pm S'pore time and reached home around 9pm. Unpacked things, which were a lot... then managed to sleep at 12am and this morning I had to wake up at 7am and went to work...
Now I have to continue my work again.. so... write till here then.. ciao