New Year Resolution

New year is just around the corner... 3 more days to go and change all the calender. Be ready with new resolution, new goal, new spirit.

My Year 2005 resolutions are:

1. Continue study (part-time).
Like what people said, "Better to walk slow rather than not walk at all."
So, even though I walk very slow.. at least I'm moving. Don't u think so?? Even if I fail in exam, hope that I still can move on and never give up!! Jia You!!!

2. Find a job.
Having relaxed for almost a year, I think it's time to move on. It's not that I don't want to find one, but I couldn't find one, yet. I don't think this year there would be more chance for employment, but no matter how hard it is, still I have to keep trying on, and not give up.

3. Save money as much as I can (After getting a job, I guess.. hehehe..).
I like to travel and I wish I could travel somewhere else in other part of the globe, not Asia, not Australia, maybe Europe or America.. but still long way to go.. Maybe.. 20 years to go? hahahhahahahahhaa...... Actually, it is not so important... The most important thing is that.. I have enough saving for my old golden days.. I don't wish to work as toilet cleaner or dishes cleaner in the age of 55 above.. *touch wood

4. O ya.. almost forget... in the end of year 2005, i wish of having another baby.. hopefully baby girl, who can be bornt in Sept - Oct 2006 (if Heaven blessed me one). I don't want let my son grow alone, be spoilt forever.. He must learn how to take care a younger sis/bro, learn how to take a responsibility as the oldest, and have someone to play, study, and grow up together...

That's all.. I don't wanna have it lots but I can't even make it realisable.. So, have fews, and be focus... Hope u all have ur own New Year resolution as well... And remember..., LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST...

Wicker Park

Have u watched 'Wicker Park' yet??? It is a very interesting movie.. Because of love, this lady dares to do anything to separate these lovely couple... for two years she lied to her friend.. But again, it relates to 'yuan fen'. It seems close, but yet.. u still cant find each other.. But then, no matter how have you been separated each other, finally still can manage to be together again... Two years in pain living in separation.. try to find the love one but couldn't find...

Anyway... today is Christmas' Eve... Merry Xmas to all of you... Hope ur dreams could come true..

Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the wayyyy......

Family or Career????

Aiyah.. forgot to talk about something... 

I just chat with one of my school mate before... and we were talking about.. family?? or career??
When i was studying, i remember that those who pursue their career (especially woman) would be either single for their whole life, divorcee, or widow, especially those who work in hotel line... Their working time would be very very long and only suit those i mentioned above...
 
My friend just went back to hotel line and she is single too.. When i asked her, actually she prefer family as well.. The problem is.. she hasn't found the right one yet.. and with her situation now, it's probably difficult for her to find one.. She has lots of things to do and spend lots of her time.. hm... 

Again, as woman, we need to balance our life... Career, Family, and our own time to do whatever we want (rest, travel, study, etc..) really not easy compared to man... Anyway.. it 's always be my plan.. to balance my life.. but the most important for me is still family... I still can have someone to rely on although no job.. but even though i got job, i may not have someone to rely on.. and lead a lonely life.. and I don't like that.

Horrrayyyy...

Today, finally, i burn my first audio CD!!!!

Aku harus pergi - Ari Lasso
F**k it - Eamon (a very nice song, u may want to find and listen to it)
Ini bukan kesalahan - Jikustik
Januari - Glen Fredly
Pemuja rahasia - Dewa
Pulanglah padanya - Jikustik
Relakan aku - Jikustik
Sedih tak berujung - Glen Fredly
Separuh nafas - Dewa
She will be loved - Maroon 5
The reason - Hoobastank
This love - Maroon 5

Sounds like all broken heart song... That's y i named it 'Broken Hearted', hehehe..
Hey, my friend has come back from PH for another friend's wedding.. hm.. congratulations for M & G!!! Hope u both can always be together happily... Wish I could join them!!!
Anyway.... write till here then.. wanna listen my CD NOW!!! bubyeeee....

Holiday again soon...

Everyday is holiday... hehehehehe... i hope so.. =( 

We have decided to go to my hometown mid of next month. My husband's families would go including me. Total of 8 adults and my baby. I hope it would be a pleasant and safe journey all the way till we came back. I have informed my parents about our arrival and they are happy to hear that and welcoming us to stay in their house.
 
My dad will turn 58 next year and my mum 54. There was only my eldest sis staying in the same country and the rests have been staying abroad. So, i could understand how they feel. Although having 5 children, 5 in law and 5 grand children, only both of them stay in their house.. so, knowing that the children would come and visit them, they feel very happy, at least not lonely for 5 days.. I know my dad is disappointed with the fact that none of his children continue his business but nothing he can do or we can do about it. I just hope they could stay with us in this country, hope to be able to buy them flat so they are not lonely anymore.. and can visit their grandchildren and children very often. But how to buy them flat if now I'm still jobless.. ???? huehehe.. must jia you!!!

What a wonderful world!!

Life has been so beautiful since the technology created internet in this life... huehuehue... that's my own opinion.. haha üü 
 
U know wad, now yahoo has offered launch cast radio! What a wonderful thing! Just find a title of song u want, or singer u know.. then there would be lists of those you may look for.. click on the song u want, you can watch its video and listen to it in front of you!! One more thing made it good.. it's fast and FREE!!!

You can even create your own station based on ur favourite singers or songs..

Hm... internet can also help me in finding the lyrics of the songs i wanna know.. just search in google, type elyrics and you find it! Type the singer and find the song.. then the lyrics will come up right away.. while watching the video, you could look at the lyrics, so you know what the song is all about..

The songs are up to date.. so.. u wont miss any single thing.. It's only that.. all available songs are only English songs.. no Indonesian.. or Chinese songs.. =)
never mind.. it's very good already!!

Internet has also brought me together with people i love.. my families, my friends all over the world.. even with my ex.. and my current hubby!!!

Friendster has also been my favourite.. I could find lots of my old friends there.. whom i haven't met for almost 10 years till now..

I really can open my eyes widely in front of my laptop.. Wish that i can open widely my eyes in front of my textbook during exam time.. hahahaha... ironic huh?

Remember lots of memories from this internet.. now..i can share what i feel here as well.. Hm... what world would be 10 years from now.. anyone think about it??

Look ahead and never look back!!!

God created us with two eyes in front, so we can only look ahead and not always look behind..

God created us with two ears in left and right, so we can listen problems from both sides..

God created us with only one mouth, cos mouth is the beginning of our problems..

God created us with a brain inside our head, so that no matter how poor or rich a person, the other people can't steal our knowledge and our mind inside...

I got this forwarded by my friend.

It really opens my eyes.. especially the first sentence. That we have to look ahead and not always look back.. We understand that so many happy things behind us that we hope it will come out again in the foreseeable future but there were also so many sad things behind us that we hope it will never come back in the foreseeable future. Therefore, it is wise if we always look ahead, always look in front of us and not always look behind...

Hope this can help you too whenever you have problems in forgetting something that is difficult to forget...

Awful feeling...

Dunno why lately my mood swings around... I actually need someone to confide to but i guess the person who i believe in might not have time for it or never appear at all as he wants to avoid me. Sometimes i feel that what the heck this life is about... i mean.. can i just get what i want? i mean.. a person that i really want.. cos the one who got me has his own interest and hobbies.. hah... sometimes i feel that i keep a lot for myself.. Everywhere I go, I really wish meeting someone I knew, at least I could get a news about someone i long for. Maybe every people has never been satisfied on what they have or had.. or is it just me? I got everything.. except.. my feeling.. i feel like a bird kept in a cage.. i long for someone to open me from the cage.. i really need that someone who know what i feel, what i want.. but that someone has never appeared and i dont wanna bother him too... J'ai crais

The Reason

By Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

 

Well... what do you think about this song? Nice huh?? quite sad though... when u have to separate with someone u love and nothing you can do about it... but then.. u dont wanna hold his way.. just because of you rite? he has many ways to go and many choices to choose.. and you re not the only one.. so... huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa................ really sad though... =''(((

Finally finishhhhh....

Finallyyyyy... my exam has ended... hiks.. yesterday was a torture... I couldnt answer some question.. hiks.. today it's slightly better.. hope so... hah.. anyway... hope i could pass both, otherwise, dont wanna waste more time and money on it... My husband came and picked me up.. *after i called him coldly... kekekkee..... then we went around the EXPO (got Robinson Christmas's sale) then having 3.50 the most expensive mie rebus all around Spore.. hahahhaa...
Ok lah.. off till now... tomorrow gotta meet my ex-colleagues.. go temple to pray as well.. Ciao!

Walawww... so hard a...

Today finally the exam is coming... dunno can pass or not.. the essay questions.. from 5.. only 1 I could answer.. hiks....
So many people there.. got meet a friend from ftc, chinese guy.. so we just chat on the way back.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............
Still one more exam to go.. I feel very very very tired already...
My husband ordered pizza tonite.. to support me for these 2 exams.. Thanks laogong... wah.. so fierce lah the examiner.. the questions really damn hard... Hope I could pass.. that's good enough already...
=((((

Where are u now???

Today my cousin just came back from Australia for holiday. She will be staying here for less than a week. She came back here with her boyfriend. It reminds me of the day when I came to Singapore during my school time for holiday and met up with my ex who was also on holiday. I just wondered how the rest of the people thought about him and me like what I thought about my cousin and her boyfriend now. Things such as hm... he's not matured enough, or.. what have they gone through together so far, or.. will they last long?? How long will it be?? Hahaha.. I feel that I'm old now compare with both of them who are only 19 years old. My ex and I were 22 that time. I'm supposed that we were mature enough to have these bf and gf relationship. So, I guess not many people would think that we were childish, or were we?? Hope not! =)

When she sent him back home, it took quite long time for her to come back. It reminds me the time when I sent him back home. He did not go back directly, but we had a chit chat first somewhere quiet cos we didnt have enough time to chit chat while at home (with so many people around..). We hug each other to express what we felt and finally he refused to go back hahaha... with a reason that it was too late already and finally he asked my mother's permission to stay overnite here.. (of course not staying in the same room.. =P) But again, we didn't talk much as he looked sleepy and I let him rest then... Moreover, with so many people around, it was not really convenient to talk or to hug.. Hahaha!!! Anyway.. if really i could turn back time.. maybe.. maybe.. maybe.. just maybe.. well.. Can't turn anywhere anyway! So.. forget it ba!
 
I never see him for a long time already.. Wonder what he is doing now.. really wanna know what is his decision then.. but anyway.. it's over.

Just one question.. Is it wrong for me for not being able to forget about him? I guess, I'm not the only person in this world who still misses the ex-bf. It's only that.. I have married hahaha!! Well.. even though I have married, can I still do that?? or not???
 
Just hope you are doing well with your life.. I don't wanna disturb you.. because you have your own life to go as well and I shouldn't hold you for your happiness...  Ciao!

5 days to go!!!

Oohh... I have no mood to study.. =(((( Yesterday I went out almost whole day.. I went to Orchard Road browsing around, had a bite of snack varieties, shopped, etc. Hempphhhh.......................

Dunno why.. My mood keep swinging these few days.. Easy to get angry.. Some more my son likes to cry now. Hiks..... :(

Anyway.. today I just got my motor driving license.. I'm so happy!!!! Now I have both :) Thank you!!!
Hope that I can have my own bike one day..when i really need it.. =)

Oklah.. write until here first... Weekend with no mood........ =((((

Another week away from home..

Two more weeks to go!! I hope the exam will end up soon... I miss my son and my hubby. It's near but yet far.. =(( He said that I'm staying in camp now, preparing for the war hahaha.. Thanks for his understanding and let me stay in my bro's place for few days... Anyway, must continue study now.. Ciao!

Rainy day

It's raining here whole day!!! Heavy rain. 

This afternoon, I visited my friend who held housewarming in her new flat. She is my best friend. She has just happily married and moved to a new house. I could see a big smile on her face, really showing her happiness!! 

But funny, I couldn't see the happiness in some other people, who just got married as well.. Hm.. Perhaps not everyone is happy of their marriage life?? Not a right partner? Or  perhaps wanna pretend to be single in their whole life? Afraid that the rest know that he has got married? 

Anyway.. During housewarming, there were not many people there. The house was not very big, but most importantly, it's warm!!! Full of laughter and happiness!! She and her husband worked very hard to earn money so that they could buy and get their own flat. Finally their dreams come true! Congratulation! Hope both of you will do fine all the time! 

My weekend has over.. Tomorrow I must continue studying. Hiks... Less than 2 weeks to go.. I must go for the exam! I had a nightmare 2 days ago :( I went to exam without any preparation!! Ooh... Scaryyy....!!! 

Today is not a very happy day.. My hubby is now struggling in fixing his computer.. Really bad situation.. I'd better not disturb him for a moment... WELL... write till here then... Continue again some time!! Ciao!

Hiks...

Few days wasted already... hiksss... Haven't reviewed fully yet... Yesterday my sis came and I accompanied her for half day.. We had lunch and swam together.. My lovely hubby helped me updating my Windows.. Yeahhh!! It's been a long time since year 2000 and now I am using Windows XP, hehehe.... So happy! He updated it until 2am last night until he forgot to bring his hand phone with him today. Thank you Laogong!
 
Talking about exam, it reminds me of someone saying this to me: "When exam, it is not the marks that people will look at, but the effort behind it that counts." Now the problem is.. I don't put enough effort in it.. hahahaha... 

Today I'm gonna bring my sweetie to my bro's house, and ask my sis to take care of him. Hopefully I can do some revision.. Maybe you're bored reading my blog because everything was about exam, exam, and exam preparation.. But tell you what.. When you were in my position, you would worry about it as well.. Doesn't mean the older you are, the better you are in handling exam.. hahahaha... Ciao!

Fatigué

Alamak!! Class from 10 to 5 pm.. 2 days in sequence.. So tiring.. Some more the contents were very hard to understand.. Hiks... 2 weeks to go, I guess.. Still so many things need to do.. But i need to relax too lah.. huehuehue

More confident!!

After going through the revision class, I have increased my confidence to face the exam. Hopefully I can make full use of my remaining time (around 2 and half weeks) by revising more on the previous exam questions. I never expect to get any gold or silver this time since the major that I took was damn difficult and you need a fully concentrated mind when doing it. My mom told me that she prays everyday for me so that I can pass my exams. I also hope that your other pray will come true too Mom... Love you...

Another new day

You can call me a bit too late when I said another new day.. Because time is now 12.06pm in the afternoon here... hehehehe.. Anyway.. I feel fresh after having 7 hours sleep.. i assume it would be enough for me to refresh my energy and my brain, another new day to start up with revision for my exam. I hope I won't be tempted anymore of anyone calling me later when I left my notebook alone, I hope.. though.. hard to resist.. hahahaha...
 
Btw, remember what people told me about.. that I was a smiley person.. "Was???" Am i not a smiley person anymore? I hope not.. Although now I'm living in another country, hope it doesn't change my personality, because sometimes when you met new people, with new characteristics, in a new ambiance and in a new way of life, it could affect your personality for some reasons. You may become a tough person, or weaker.. smiley or angry face.. it all depends. Anyway.. I love to write.. can write about anything.. usually something informal, like what i feel now.. 

Remind me of seven years ago, perhaps, when I knew internet for the very first time with my own brand notebook, and when I knew someone from the other side of the world whom I challenged and the loser had to write 10 pages of email to the winner.. and guess what, I lost. I was challenging him something that made him a better person.. huehehe.. and I purposely lost in order to motivate him. So, anything came out on those ten pages email. I guess I still kept the copy of what I wrote. It brought me with another memory of another person.. huahahaha.. 

Believe it or not.. Memory will never end. Every new day means another memory is being created. But usually we only remember those very happy and very sad moment. Anyway.. smile for today. Hope it will bring a very happy moment with someone or people around you.. Can be your families, friends, girl/boyfriend, anybody... SMILE cheeezzzz.... :)

Exam's coming

Gotta work hard! 

Life has not been easy for some time, especially when exam is coming. Nobody forces me into this.. It's my own decision to continue study. For the future? Maybe.. if it's useful.. hahaha... Otherwise, it'd be just a piece of paper collected inside the folder, that I would bring along here and there to find my rice bowl somewhere.. 

Anyway.. i wish my energy is as much as when i am online like this.. hiehiehie... Unfortunately, my eyes were only opened widely when in front of computer with internet connection only.. hahaha.. until I was onced titled as "Ms. Computer" during study time in LR hahaha.. 

Btw, talking back to my previous school, there were lots of memories in it.. The beauty and the peace of the country.. the fresh and cool air.. most importantly, great friends inside it, and my ex who had encouraged me a lot during studying time. 

Will talk about it later.. not now.. because I'm sure there will be lots more about it.. my everything.. Gotta sleepzzz soon.. My eyes have been working too hard for the whole day.. Time to sleeeeppppzzzzz.... 

Morning

Ola ü
What a time!! It's 4am in the morning, in the mood of having my own blog online.. 
Hope of having my own space, can speak freely of what I'm thinking and doing here. Cheers!!!