Another year growing up

Wow.. how time flies.. Still remember the good times during high school and it's been 5 years since I graduated. Have been married for more than 3 years and now my son is going to 3 years old in December.

What my life will be in 5 years ahead?? No idea.. Really no idea..

Do I satisfy with my current life? Do I want to reach for the better? How? What am I going to do? Any plan ahead?

I only know how fragile life is nowadays.. Anyone can just die anytime anywhere because of anything. When my life will be taken then? Hahaha.. sound pessimistic.. :P

Well, talk about the Birthday then. I was sick.. sore throat and flu.. blocked nose.. (I did not go to work for two days.. incl on my Birthday). I stayed at home and took a lot of rest.

On Friday night we were having steamboat at home together with my bro and his families, my sis and bro-in-law, my sis-in-law's cousin, and families of my husband. It was fun. Eating all you can and all gave up because the food was just too much! Enough for 3 days consumption :P

My mom asked my sis to buy birthday cake for me. It was mango cake bought from Crystal Jade, my favorite. My sis-in-law's husband who works at soft drink company, sponsored drinks for the dinner. Thanks all to make my birthday memorable and fun :)

My friends from everywhere sent me sms-es and called me on that day. The first greeting came from my special friend at 12am from faraway (US). . Shelly (SG) woke me up at 8am while i was still on my dream.. My mom(JKT) sent me message early in the morning.. Putra sent sms for me on my hubby's hp twice, telling me that he was in Hong Kong now and was having a flu. Sorry to hear that. Siska (JKT) sent me sms too, which I never expected that she would since she would be very busy preparing her wedding party this upcoming December. I wish I could attend :( Pao2 (MELB) sent me sms during dinner, so did Bambang (BALI) who was having headache because of the low room occupation in the hotel where he works. Tsk tsk... Marni (JKT) sent me sms on the day after because she was not sure whether my birthday falling on 23rd or 24th, but I was very glad that she's still remember. Apin (SG) sent me sms too despite that we met on the dinner. Oh yeah.. my sis-in-law(SG) sent me sms too at nite - kiasu.. hahahhaa... My eldest sis called me during her lunch hour and my second sis called me on 24 because she was too busy on 23rd. Thanks a lot my dear sis!!! Not to forget my dear ex and current colleagues who still remember my birthday: PY, Siaw Whay, and Florence. Thanks for everything everyone!!!

My birthday is meaningful because of your care and love for me...:) To everyone who joined us for the dinner, thanks for coming too!! Hope I could lead a better life and have some dream fulfilled this year :)

Fatigue...

Hoahhhmm..... I don't have enough sleep this week... soooooo....... tiredddd...

Every night I slept after 10.30pm... *Sometimes I slept as early as 7 pm at nite.. hehehehe... that's why I said I am so tired... =(((

Back to normal activity.. no more drinking session like I had last few weeks.. hahaha... (finished the Absolut Raspberry by few persons.. ;P)

Hm... can have some more next week or next two weeks lahhh... =PPP to celebrate..... celebrate what hor??? ;)

Oh ya... this month.. every Sunday I got afternoon class... =(( so terrible.. kinda hate it.. hahaha.. actually hate to take exam.. but no choice lehhh... unless my pa can accept my decision.. *which i think he wouldn't... hiks....

My bro, his wife, and children must reach Penang now.. met up with my parents and 3rd sis.. Too bad I couldn't join them.. Tomorrow I have to work and on Sunday I have a class.. Hiks....

Hopefully I can go home earlier today and take a good nap.. *i wish...

Oklah.. I feel so sleepy now... Hiks hiks hiks... Bubyeee......

Truth in Life Hurts

You surely agree those words...Truth in life really hurts..
Sometimes... i just cant face the truth..that no matter how bitter, how wrong the situation, but it just hurts too much, that i prefer to live in my dream
Is it really that wrong to live in a dream?
I've been asking myself...
To follow the right thing..to accept the truth..i need to embrace all the pain that they cause..but to what end? Just for doing the right thing? Is by doing the right thing will make everything allright?
My friend once told me..its not only about the right thing..its about the future as well..
We cant just live in the present only...we need to broaden our mind..see what lies ahead of us by doing the right thing...
Those words struck me deeply...
I've been narrowminded....
Just like working in a company...if we can't pave our carreer in that company, better leave that company and find another one where we can build our future!
But me...i prefer to work as regular guy in the company as long as im happy there...rather than going to other company and not happy
OMG...i lose track what im talking about =D
back to topic..truth in life hurts..
so..what do we do then? should we accept the truth? ofcourse we have to..we dont have any choice except to accept the truth..the real question is, what do we do with the truth in our life?
accept and go on with our life? or hide in our dream?

Lie? Truth?

Well.. it's now about word 'lie'.
L I E.. T R U T H..
Sometimes.. we have to lie to hide the truth from someone that we love.. in order not to make them disappointed..
Sometimes.. we can not lie to someone that we love.. 'coz we want them to know everything about us..
Sometimes.. we have to keep lying.. so that he/she's be better not knowing anything rather than knowing the truth..
There is also one thing about lie..
You wonder whether you wanna know the truth or better not..
You are curious to know about the truth.. But once you know.. it's only to make your heart in despair.. You feel like being stabbed by someone you love, you trust, you care... You may lose all the trust you have till time can heal your pain.
So now..
Should we lie? or should we tell the truth??
But I had to know the truth.. although I will know what the real person they are..

Hullooo....

It's been almost 2 weeks since my last blog. So many things happened..

I was quite busy entertaining my old friends who came here in the past one-two weeks plus the company Dinner and Dance which had a theme of 'Step Back In Time', where we were all back to year 50s to 70s.

Well, must say that I was so lucky to live in this country where people can easily reach or pass by when they travel from and to their destinations. It's really in the centre of Asia where people like to stop and of course.. meeting me.. hehehehe..

Living away from family since 18 years old till now made me had to depend on friends wherever I go. I still remembered the time when I was living for a first day in Beijing, it's my friends who encouraged me of being able to stay there long. I was thinking.. "She had been here for 3 years and still moved on and able to adapt, why can't I???".

She was my neighbor, living next to my room, Indonesian girl from Surabaya. She is also the one who helped me when I was having diarrhea badly. She called the nurse to come to my room, made me porridge, found another blanket to cover my shivering body.. and because of me, she had to cancel her trip to another city. She is the one who made me thinking hard on how important the friend is in our life. Could you imagine life without someone that u know.. someone who can understand you.. taking care of you.. be with you when you were up and down.. no matter how far or near they are.. they were ever be meant in your life!!

Since then, I treasure more on all of my friends. Even though we are not living together.. we were spread all over the world.. I will always try my best to keep in touch with them even if sometimes they can't even remember who I am anymore. And I'm really glad that we have something called 'friendster' in this century who connect us together =)

Back to the life here.. I met again someone who ever been closed to me before. A was the one who encouraged me during my study in Swiss, where life was cold, almost every time of my first six months there, only my laptop that can connect me to the other side of the world.. yeah, you know, chatting life.. hahahhaa.... I had younger brother.. friends.. even boyfriend.. hahaha.. thinking back to the time made me laugh.. till my best friend called me 'Miss Computer'.

My best friend F was the one who made me see the real world. F always encouraged me to go out.. see how beautiful the country was and how nice to make friends with real people, not just from the internet.. =P

Because of him, 'Miss Computer' changed into 'Miss Party' Haha,, But we always had our limit and protect to each other. Haiyah... again.. what am I talking??? Now talk into another topic again.. hahahaha..

So, A was here for few days.. and I went out eventually for dinner, lunch, etc. It's been quite a while since the last time we met together. We went out drinking too.. so much fun!!! I love it! hehehe...

We had a company organized Dinner and Dance. I was wearing Ago-go type of cloth. They told me to find something from back to year 50s to 70s, but ended up most of them were wearing clothes from back to year 30s-50s.. a bit out of the line, hor?? Some even just wore a normal office attires. Hm......

I didn't get any top 10 lucky draw prizes.. but it was alright because most importantly I went there to have some fun just like what we had before in LR, a kinda thing of Cultural Night once per semester?

Oh yeah.. feel like Chinese New Year too during the Dinner and Dance, rather than really back to the oldies.. *Sorry guys.. it's not a complain, just expressing what I feel.. But you guys really did a good job.. Your hard working and everything made a good result..:)

One more thing.. we were entitled 2 glass of beer per person. But dunno why, I drank more than that!! Hahahahhaha... We got the tickets from other colleagues who did not drink... =P Cheers!!! Bottoms UP!!!! Overall, we enjoyed it and were having lots of time!!!