9 days to go!!!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............
another 9 days to go!!!!
How exciting!!! I don't dare to imagine what will happen on my trip there.. I just can hope that everything is going to be alright. Hopefully I have a very good health all along the journey and can come back home safely without less any single thing..
It's been, dunno, many many years ago that I can travel for this long again to a totally strange place that I've never been before.
My other sisters and brother have been there except me and my eldest sis. That's why I really wonder what the places will look like.. how fun it will be.. etc..
Wanna take lots of pics there.. as a proof that I finally reach the destination.. hehehehe...
Gotta meet some friends over there too.. *if there is fate between us.. of course.. hahahaha..
Wanna shop shop too.. hahahhaa.. *if the condition is 'memungkinkan' huawhawhhawa...
Surely gonna miss my cutie son, my home, and my family members too.. Dun worry.. if fate is there.. we surely meet together again.. =)

Forever Love

By Wang Lee Hom

English translation

Love you; it’s not only because of your beauty
I love you more and more, your every eye contact touches my heart
Because you let me see forever then I understand myself
Please treasure the days that are about to come
Love me; there are some pain, some unfairness
If you really love me; this is not an ‘of course’ decision
I can feel your breathe next to my ears as magical as breeze passes byYou softly comforted my uneasiness
Therefore I want to study your smile everyday
Ooh, how natural this is

Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you’ll be the every reason for my happiness

Love is a most beautiful and furthest travel
There will be rains and mud along the way which sometimes prevent us from going
I can feel your temperature in my arms as warmly as sunlight
You magically melt my uneasiness
Unbelievable, this proves the reason why I love you
Ooh, how natural this is

Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you’ll be the every reason for my happiness

Your eyes flicker with touchiness, my silent voice seemed to be the best evidence
Please let me repeat once more: I love you oh (until eternality)

Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you’ll be the every reason for my happiness

Forever love forever love forever love

Installing love

Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components ." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.

My heart
(Ost Heart)
by: Irwansyah & Acha Septriasa

Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia kudenganmu
Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Reff:
Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody could we be this strong
I will fight to win our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart

=(((

So sad...
This morning I feel so sad.. Hope that the person will feel the same as mine, but it's the other way around. Angry and disappointed.. Now I feel very sad.. no mood to do anything else... =((
Another two weeks to go. I only can hope that everything is going to be fine... *sigh...

Update

Today is Wednesday, 21st June 2006. How time flies... One of my colleagues resigned and today is his last day.. We had our lunch together at the office (ordering Pizza Hut & KFC together with celebrating other colleagues' b'day fell this month).
We took some pics together...
I realize there are many people left from this office and this is a very usual scene in working environment. A bit sad though.. but what to do?? life must go on...
Last nite I slept in Meritius Mandarin w/ my eldest sis and tonite too.. She came here on business trip with her boss yesterday nite. Nothing much to do actually inside the hotel, but it's convenient 'cos it only took 20 minutes from the hotel to the place where I work (instead of 40 mins journey from home to my working place) hehehe... And breakfast complimentary is only available for one person... *too bad.. hehehehe.. Now I'm little bit sleepy, not having enough sleep 'cos I slept about 1am last nite (she only arrived at the hotel at 11.30pm)
Hopefully I can have more sleep tonite.. and go for work freshly tomorrow morning..
2.5 weeks to go to my holiday trip.. really can't wait for it to come.. Write till here first.. Ciao

Ai Mei by Rainie Yang

曖昧讓人受盡委屈
找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進　何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

只能陪你到這裡　畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情　還不到愛情
遠方就要下雨的風景

到底該不該哭泣　想太多是我還是你
我很不服氣　也開始懷疑
眼前的人　是不是同一個　真實的你

＊曖昧讓人受盡委屈　
找不到相愛的證據　
何時該前進　何時該放棄　
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

　曖昧讓人變得貪心　
直到等待失去意義　
無奈我和你　寫不出結局　
放遺憾的美麗　停在這裡＊

Singing together????

Ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu
Zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju
He shi gai qian jin he shi gai fang qi
Lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi

Zhi neng pei ni dao zhe li
Bi jing you xie shi bu ke yi
Chao guo le you qing hai bu dao ai qing
Yuan fang jiu yao xia yu de feng jing

Dao di gai bu gai ku qi
Xiang tao duo shi wo hai shi ni
Wo hen bu fu qi Ye kai shi huai yu
Yan qian de ren shi bu shi tong yi ge zhen shi de ni

*Ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu
Zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju
He shi gai qian jin he shi gai fang qi
Lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi

Ai mei rang ren bian de tan xin
Zhi dao deng dai shi qu yi yi
Wu nai wo he ni xie bu chu jie ju
Fang yi han de mei li ting zai zhi li

Need subtitles...?? =D

Ambiguous let people feel wronged
Could not find the evidence of loving each other
When should go forward, when should give up
Even do not have courage to hug

Only can accompany you till here
Afterall there are some disallow matters
Surpassing friendship still not reaching the love stage
The scenery in the distant location is going to rain

Should or should not cry
Thinking too much I still think of you
I feel very inconvincingand starting to doubt
Is the person in front of me the same real you

*Ambiguous let people feel wronged
Could not find the evidence of loving each other
When should go forward, when should give up
Even do not have courage to hug

Ambiguous make people become greedy
Until waiting lost its means
Pity that me and you could not write out an ending
To put the regretful beauty stop until here

Nice song.. Knew this from my best friend. She wrote it first at her blog, then she asked me to listen to the song.. fall in love with it.. hehehe...
I copied the lyrics from her blog (Chinese version) and the rest from other people's blog.
She said she put this song when it was raining.. and rain remains her of the sad memories..
Back to memories.. Should we have or shouldn't we?
Sometimes it's good to have.. but sometimes I think it's better to erase it all.. if it will only lead to the sad memories that it would never appear again in life.
Just forget about everything and create new one.. with no feeling.. hehehe...
So no hard feeling when it's gone anyway...
Raining hard this morning..
Almost late too.. but I managed to come one minute earlier than the stated time =P
Life O Life.. again.. say this word.. but I know.. it's hard to accept...

Gundah, galau

I don't feel good these few days. I feel like I'm outta space.
Supposed to be exciting over another three weeks.
But now... I just feel very down with it.
Maybe the both words on top to express what I feel.
Only if I can cry shout loud out there freely no boundary 'till my voice's gone
I am weak too..
Perhaps, everyone has their own weakness..
Look so strong in front.. but deep inside, they or we feel very weak..
No sense of protection, no sense of security, with so much changes in life..
Aniwae.. perhaps gotta find the place to release all these emotions and start with something new
Bete

Lateeee...

This morning I woke up at 7am to turn my alarm off, then I continued sleeping 'cos I felt very tireddd.... and just woke up suddenly to see the clock already 8am. Lucky I was awake.. otherwise.. I would be late so badly!!! This morning, without having a bath =P, no makeup, no parfum, just left the house. My hubby fetched me 'till the MRT and I had my own ride back to the office. No matter how fast I ran, I was still late reaching the office by 10 minutes.
And now, I found out that my period comes.. No wonder lahhhh.... Very seldom for me to feel that tired.. and now I understand why... *fiuh....
Today is my friend's last day in the office. She is now busying take pictures with other colleagues, and take pictures around the hotel area *perhaps.. =D
I will fly together with her to Japan, then we will have our separate ways. She is going to Canada, while I am going to LA. Less than one month i will be flying off for holiday. I was exciting about it and can't wait for it. 'Cos it will be a very long journey and I will spend my three-week holiday down there!! To meet my old friends who have been staying there all this while.. and it's my first time to go to America!! Big part of the world!! I always see it in movie, but never in real thing.. *suaku ya.. hahahhahaa.... Aniwae... there were many things happened recently in the office. I could feel the differences...
And yeah.. I finally found my old friend from my previous school too yesterday afternoon. My boss just had lunch in the restaurant where he worked yesterday and two days ago, I had checked with one of the staffs there whether they knew this person and they did.. So I found the restaurant reservation phone number and looked for him =D He is now working as Asst Mgr there.. hm.. not bad huh?? And I asked his hp no., so next time it will be easier for me to look for him. 'Cos all this while we stay in Singapore, we never meet each other and no contact at all.. although S'pore is soooo small country.. and eventually, our house stays quite near (same area). So, next time I can ask other friends who came here to meet together... =D
Well.. still got lots of things to do now... Gotta stop till here... Ciao

One two three...

Open my friend's blog this morning.. and this is what she said (taken from 'HL' advertisement):

"One is good..
Two is better...
and her friend added..
Three is heaven..."

^_^

I kinda understand on what she encountered now with her partner just by reading their blogs. It's interesting to see people's lives 'cos we may encounter it ourselves while we didn't know what to do to solve the problems. Or we may learnt from their experiences too..
I posted her blog and let my other friend to see it as she also encounters the same problem and just to let her know that .. she is not alone... =D

Two more days to exam

Another two days and I will have to go for my exam!! How wonderful if I could finish it earlier.. I can only try my best to do it... =( *still need luck on it!!
I have burnt my weekend studying it for at least 4-5 hours each day.. but I know, it will never be enough..
Jia you.. Jia you.. that's what I've heard what my father said on the phone.. the only motivation for me to go on...
Please pray for me that everything is going to be ok.. *I wish...

Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Gotta know this lyrics from someone else's blog. Haven't heard the real song yet.. Perhaps I'm going to find it out soon so that I know what it's like.