I feel much better these past two days. At least some people's mood have slightly gotte better.

This afternoon, a feng shui master came in to my office and allowed me to throw some old documents. Some documents were there since 1997. Kekeke... She said, it's not good for feng shui with so many stuff and messy. I cleared those junks right away and cleaned the cupboard at the same time. She always says that many people are eyeing my office since I have lots of place to put my things inside the office. I even have a small minibar fridge. Kekeke...
Do you know who is the feng shui master I was talking about?? My boss.
She came to my office because she wanted to find empty cabinet that she can use it in other place. We have one and there is not many documents inside. So she asked me to clear the old stuffs, fill with the documents that were inside the drawer, so that she can use that drawer.

Before she went out, I told her that I plan to take two-week leave in August. She asked me if it's during month end and I said, no. She just wants to ensure that someone is covering my duty while I was not around. So I told her about my back up plan and she simply said, go lah, it's not ur first time taking such a long leave. Fiuh... I felt much release. Because from the last meeting, she was talking about the leave and I was thinking that she was talking about me planning to take such a long leave. Until I had so much thinking in my mind during the weekend.
Now I'm really relieved to hear that. Means that I don't have to worry about my Tibet trip. Thank you SB!!!

Tomorrow I'll have a first meeting that I arrange. We'll talk about wine. Hope I didn't offend anyone and we can solve this together. Hopefully...

Btw, it's really better after clearing the old stuff and cleaning my office. Hope the feng shui works!!! Kekekke... Jia you!!

Aspiratiions

May the Buddha guide my thoughts, speech and actions throughout the day.
May the Dhamma help me to be strong in moments of weakness, brave in times of trouble, and calm in the face of changing fortunes.
May the Sangha inspire me to act with kindness, patience and forgiveness in my dealings with all.

May this country be blessed with peace and prosperity.
May I have the opportunity today to help someone in need of my love and support.
I apologize if I have carelessly hurt someone today, by word or deed, may I be more mindfull the next time.

O Buddha, the Enlightened One, help me to set my heart right.
May my actions reflect your love and compassion I shall strive to cleanse my heart from hate and envy and live in harmony with all people.

Whatever wrong someone may do to me, may I be compassionate and forgive and bear no hatred in my heart.
I shall bear in mind to be grateful for the acts of love and conaideration shown to me, no matter how small they appear to be.

May the Buddha be at my head,
The Dhamma in my heart,
And the Sangha at my side to protect and guide me always.

For those I love and those who love me,
May this life be a blessing and a source of happiness to all beings.

I got the above from the paper given for praying. I didn't take attention on what was written since it was written at the back of the paper. On my way back home, inside the bus, I took a look at it and it seems suitable for my current situations.
It gives me strength to carry one. It gives me peace and calm when I was afraid. Hope this aspirations will guide my everyday life from now on, and it will be great if this can help others. That's why I put it here.

Also a dhammapada verses that you can find it online. Type 'dhammapada verses 277'. It teaches us about impermanence. It's easy to say, but it is difficult to do. Jia you ba!!!

I'm glad that all my sisters know how to express themselves nowadays. To my surprise, my mom did as well. If you have something in mind that you wanna say to someone, better say it now. Don't wait until the 'right moment'. There is no 'perfect moment'. Now is the perfect moment. Say it while you can, before it's too late. So many people live full of regrets when they are unable to say the three words, 'I love you', 'I am sorry', or 'Please forgive me', for instance.

Btw I feel better now after chatting with my brother and sis-in-law. I just came out from their house. Compared to them, what I face now is nothing. I may need to learn how to carry on and find a better way out of doing things. I should have a courage to face the reality, whether they like it or not. They also somehow face the same problem, if not, a bigger or more complicated one. However, they would find solutions rather than giving up.
We live this world with full of responsibilities. I can't always think of myself alone. There are many people that can benefit from it. And I believe, every problem should have a solution. Learn from mistakes, at least you've tried your best. Giving up would be the last solution should thing wouldn't go according to your wish. We should 'jia you'!!! Must remember, there are many people out there that are less fortunate than we are. The more that we should trasure our lives. I hope I can face this. Think broadly!! My problem may only be 'ikan bilis' for other. So, try first before giving up. OK?

Happy Mother's Day Mom

Today I feel happy because I have a chance to tell my mom that I love her very much! Like the Shi Fu said, there is always a great woman behind someone's success. And that person is my mom. Also my mother-in-law who has taken care my son and us unconditionally. Without them around, we wouldn't have time to do things that we had to do. They have sacrificed a lots of thing for us.
I was quite emotional this morning when attending a talk and pray in collaboration of Mother's Day celebration this morning in front of Takashimaya. I thought of myself being a mom, also thought of my mom who is faraway from me. Like the Shi Fu said once again, we only understood how much our parents suffering once we became parent ourselves. I believe my dad has suffered a lot too for him in order to earn money for our studies and lives. I believe he had no choice too and could only do what he can do. Now myself is working hard and received lots of hardship, it's because of who? Because of my son and families. My son is still young and we still have a long way to go. I'll do my best ya. Unless if I really can't stand it anymore, I'll then quit and find other things that may be better.
Well... Going to have a sip of coffee. Hope you all enjoy your day with your loved ones and Happy Mother's Day!

San bu yi bai

Yesterday Reever and I woke up 4.30am and got ourselves ready for san bu yi bai. We had breakfast first before we took taxi there. Shared a plate of chee cheong fan, a cup of 'kopi' for me and 'milo' for Reever. Lucky we had our breakfast first, because they didn't provide any food before the event. This san bu yi bai is held only for Saturday/Sunday students, its parents, teachers, and volunteers, not for public. The length of the journey is the same, it took us about 2 hours. It's tiring. My legs pain, but it's all worthed. ;) I enjoyed the process very much.

"Devotees usually line up to meditatively cirumambulate the perimeter of the temple, bowing once every three steps, while chanting mantras or the name of the Buddha in praise of Him. This practice helps to purify the Mind, humble the ego and lessen obstacles along the spiritual Path."

We started at 6.30am and ended at 8.30 am. It's my 2nd attempt and I still felt joyous when I finally reached the end of the journey. Reever bowed fully to the floor only for first few times, and after that, he just bowed while standing up. He couldn't stand it. Perhaps it's too young for him to understand what it's for. Many children were doing that too and some were really great. They could fully bow until the end. Thumbs up!

We had a bowl of vegetarian noodle after that, and drank lots of water. We went back home and took a bath. I slept and took a rest 'til afternoon time. And started to watch another series. Again, Taiwanese series, with title "Jiu xiang lai zhi ni". It's only shown once a week on TV, so I'd better watch it online. Hehehhee... and started the show from beginning as I missed the beginning part.

This morning I had vegetarian beehoon for breakfast. Reever had pancakes with Milo. He had Kumon after that, then we shopped at NTUC. After reached home, I prepared the Japanese curry and longan jelly. It's done and very nice. Hehehe... Now going to watch series again while waiting hubby to come home. Tomorrow working again. Haiz.... Write till here... Hope you all enjoy your weekend...