I am selfish, aren't I?

I want people to accompany me whenever I need, but I couldnt do the same thing for them..
I want people to talk to me whenever I am lonely, but sometimes I couldnt do the same..
I want people to accommodate me whenever I am sick, but I didnt do the same thing when they were in that condition..
I want people to please me.. but I always make them unhappy..
Am I selfish???
I am selfish, aren't I???

My best friend...

I just read her profile.. and it looks like that she was confusing with herself, just like any of us do.
I knew her during my study in Swiss. First time knew her from another guy, our best friend, and we travelled for the very first time together to Germany (9 of us), and I was the only one who could communicate in Chinese with her... We were in different class until our 4th year and we were in the same group for most of our projects..

I found a lot of commons between me and; her, especially regarding to our families and both of us love our father very much and have learnt a lot of principles in life from their own experiences. We were taught to be thrift or prudent with our money, not to waste it for unuseful things, to make use of our lives fully independently, to always love our family members no matter what.. and many more thinkings that both of us find it same.. That's why I feel comfortable in talking and chatting with her...

After graduating, we still keep in touch. She often comes here for holiday and we met together with other school friends.

Since she studied in Aussie, I found her a little bit closing her self.. til I have to push her little bit to tell me what was going on.. how was she... etc..

Like what she wrote on her profile.. I was having almost same personalities but not all with her.. The most difference we have is.. in our relationship with guy. She is still single now.. pretty.. while me.. I am no more single.. have one son and not as pretty as her.. hehehe..

Sometimes I feel more and more distance with her. If I didn't approach her, she wouldn't share her feelings with me.. Well, maybe it's her characteristics where she feels more comfortable with. Just hope that.. we always have that 'yuan fen' of being good friends till we old.. and die.. huehehe... :D

Tired...

Holiday has over.. now we are all going back to work again!!!

Today I have lots of things to prepare and all was given in one day.. I must know how to prioritize.

Yesterday I couldn't sleep.. Ready to sleep at 2am.. but I could only sleep around 3am. After that I woke up at 5.30am because my son was wetting (I forgot to put a diapers on him). Therefore, the bed was wet.

Then at 7am i woke up again and went to work.

My head is find, but my body is damn tired. Nowadays I have this panda eyes.. which I don't think I had before.

Later I will have lunch with my sister and her South Korean friend who visited Spore for only one nite and leave again tonight..

Tomorrow, I am going to have dinner with my ex-boss, just the two of us.. Not really know what I should say but I want to thank her for treating me very well during my last job and wonder how she is doing now.

This week and next week will be a very tiring week for me, especially next week. My mom is coming and I need to arrange thing for her. I'll have an education visit tour from the hotel (We're going to visit Tiger Beer factories. How exciting! Lolx!). After that I will have revision class non-stop from Fri nite, Sat aft to nite, Sun morning to evening, then Mon nite.. Oh, I wanna see how strong my body and mind will be... Just hope I can have a good health before the exam is coming..

Well.. that's my time table for a moment.. Update again next time... Ciao!

Easier to say than done

Hiks... Last weekend, yesterday.. never study.. hiks hiks hiks...
Always tell people that i will study during holiday.. but again.. easier to say than done.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....................... Exam comes in one month's time.. What have I done??? Nothing!!! hiks hiks hiks... Help!!!!

Lonely - By Akon

 

Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,

I have nobody,

For my owwnnn

I'm so lonely,

I'm Mr. Lonely

I have nobody,

For my owwnnn

I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya

Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was

Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz

Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck

Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I

Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through

Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u

Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me

Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and

Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever

Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)

I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)

I have nobody (I have nobody)

To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonelySo lonely, (so lonely),

Mr. Lonely, so lonely

So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely),

Mr. Lonely