Back to normal

Finally I have been better after 10 or more days with my fluz and sore throatz...
Perhaps I should have eaten more chillies so that I can recover faster.. haiehiaheihaiehiaheiae...
Feel very fresh since yesterday after trimming my hair. Hm.. worth spent money for the feeling I have now =P
Today, already 2 persons telling me that I look prettier.. haiehaiehiaheihaiehiaheiaei... ^^
Too bad I still can't control the way I eat. Yesterday I just said to myself that I wouldnt eat anything after my last beehoon bakso... But half an hour before 12 am in the morning, suddenly I felt so hungry and couldnt sleep if I didnt fill my stomach with something.. then like you all have already expected.. I ate mee goreng plus my favourite fried egg, hm... yummy!!! =D How to lose weight if I continue like this????
Aniwae.. I've been much better compared to last year.. at least I could wear some of my clothes (or underwear) that I bought before married and giving birth. =P But to call it slim, it's still faraway ahead.. and it's not something I long for. Just be the way I am with my normal weight *at least for me it's normal.. haiehiaheihaeiae... and be healthy...
Btw, plan to munch McD's twisted fries later.. ahiehaiheihaeiae.. plus chicken nuggets.. haiehiaheihaiehiae... oh my...
One hour and 20 mins to go before going back home.. D porridge couldnt last long in my stomach and I could feel trumble sound from it.. haiehiaheihaiehiaheae...
Better stop now.. otherwise... im going to bite myself.. haiehiaheihaieea.. Ciao everyone!!!

Damn flu!!

It started last Friday. I thought it was just a normal cold, till it got worst. On Monday, almost everyone knew that I was sick by the way I spoke.. even till today.

I went to company doctor on Monday morning and he gave me pills for five days. Today is the forth day already and my flu seems have not recovered yet.

He gave me 3 types of medicine. One for nose, only drink it twice per day (not to drink at night), one for phlegm three times a day, and another one is one per day (only to drink at night cos it will cause dizziness and you will sleep all the way).

It really did! For three nights I could feel like gulping sleeping pills. I always go to bed at 10 pm and wake up at 7am, yesterday 7.40am. 9 hours supposed to be sufficient for normal people.. even more than enough (ever heard people who sleep 5-6 hours/day??), but it's never enough for me in this type of condition. It's very hard of me to wake up every morning, wish that every day is holiday so I could sleep more. Perhaps the effect of the medicine is too strong. When will I recover???????

I hate it man when I am sick. I feel that I have no energy to walk, no mood to eat, and even to do anything.. just wish I could apply sick leave and sleep a whole day at home.. but too bad, I can't =(

Well, National day is coming soon!! Well, it's Spore National day.. which also a remembrance of my father-in-law one year' pass away. How time flies!

And u know what? Last week I bought 4D and chose the i-bet, where the number, let's say 1234 for $1, then if the number came out 4321, I will still win (but with less prizes). I bought for Wed, Sat and Sun, and no one set of number came out, and yesterday it came out at 1st prize, where I did not buy it. *sigh.... perhaps it's not my luck in this type of game.

But I do buy hope.. hope that I could win it someday.. hahahahahhaa...

OKlah.. got to work now.. and wish me recover soon huh??? hiaheihaehiaheiae... bubyeee

What Will U Do?

What will you do
When you feel blue
I have no clue
What should I do
When I was blue

Dying

Have u ever thought of running away from problem, dilemma, reality until you don't have anywhere to go? You feel like just gone from this world and so do your worries, troubles, and sadness? I bet everyone does.
Sometimes we think of suicide in many ways... But suicide is not advisable at all!

I've heard that after you died from suicide, you will straightly go to the hell... You were being punished as you did not treasure your life, and during ur life there in hell, you will suicide over and over again and have no control in stopping it..

Have you watched Constantine?? Maybe that's what I refer to.

Yesterday my colleague told me that there was a 16 year old boy died jumping from the high floor (suicide, of course) just because his 17 year old girl rejected his love.

Can you imagine??? 16 year old boy had thought of suiciding!!

Did he ever think what his parents feel? Raising him for 16 years and end up with this pain reality??

Well, i thought of dying too. In fact, I thought about it yesterday night. I was thinking what way will be good to die fast, but slowly and not pain. I thought of becoming alcoholic to ruin myself but then, I thought of kidney disease that need to wash the blood every time and can only drink limited amount of water everyday. Watching that on TV made me thinking of another way, which is smoking.

Well, smoking can cause lung cancer and it will make me die faster, but I don't like the smell after smoke in the mouth.. heuhehehe.. *so hard leh..

What else ah??

Cutting the nerve?? Nope.. It's suicide and it's pain too!! Once the blood come out, your brain would start losing lots of blood, then you would start feeling very pain!! Oh Gosh!!!

I think, I'd better stay alive. No matter how hard and pain life is, it won't be as painful as you get a disease resulting from excessive alcohol and cigarette. It won't be as painful as you lose your blood, and it won't be as painful as your brain smashed to the floor.

I think, it's still better to live and let live! yah.. C'est la vie! It's up and down.. There were moments when we were down. But only if we feel down then we can feel up again!!

Instead of thinking how to make my self down-er and become the down-est.. why don't I think about make this life the full-est as I can? Easy to say but not easy to do. But again, remember all the results above by hurting your physical with the hope of dying, is it worth??

There was a boy with no legs try to run his own wheelchair and move himself from wheelchair to normal chair. A man, seeing him in that condition, faster went toward him and wanted to help him. You guess what a boy said? "Thank you, Sir! I can do it myself. Although i have no legs to walk, but I still have two hands to support my self through my life."

Most of the time in our lives, we look more on what we don't have and not what we have!

The spirit of life lies in our hands. Easy to say. Live life to the fullest. Try to do it from now on! We, who have a complete parts of our body should not lose from the small boy! What are our problems compare to the others? There are more people who suffered much more than us!

Well, I feel a bit like a priest here, but nope., I'm not a priest. I'm just a human who is feeling down and try to make myself up, and hopefully can make others to think differently and can wake them up from their suffering and injuries too!!!

What a day!!! Sucks!!

Life sucks man!!!
Today, i really2 had a bad dayz...
Have u ever laughed loudly but actually crying inside??? That's what I had today...
Can't share the story with anybody else.
Tomorrow im going to have drink with my friends.. hope by drinking I can feel much better... Since they dont drink alcohol, let me drink lahhh... =P
Another sucks thing.. I accidentally deleted 'important and unback up' files from my folder.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaa............. I've checked with IT and she said she could retrieve the last week files.. For me, as long as I can get it back, it doesnt matter how old is it.. but not all gone mannnn!!! What a day!!!!
And yesterday, my only entertainment during the day was blocked cos of unreasonable reason.. And now.. I cant access the web that I used to go.. during office hours.
HIks.. hiks.. hiks... Life sucks!!!
Merde!!!