aLonE

I think I've mentioned before, that I need someone to talk to about what I feel in my previous blogs, can't really remember which one. The person that I normally talk to is busy w/ her ownself. Everytime I tried to talk about myself, she started talking about herself. I didn't blame her 'cos she got her own lives to busy with. That's why I chose to be accompanied by the alc & cig that evening since nobody I could turn to. Silly, I know, but no other way to go.
Sometimes I felt so lonely w/ so many words within myself looking for someone close to share with, someone close who can be trusted. It's not a 'must' thing to have but 'good' to have. I don't mind listening other people, but I need to be listened too and perhaps only my sleeping son will do =)))
Yesterday I was in a good mood to eat.. After emptying out my stomach, I was really having good mood for eating. =D In the morning I ate fried kway teow w/ veggies & luncheon meat. Lunch time I ate mie siam in the canteen. I bought picnic sandwiches in Four Leaves Bakery (contained 2 buns filled w/ mayo egg & tuna mayo and 2 mini sandwiches filled w/ crab mayo & chicken salad). I ate all except the bun w/ mayo egg at about 4pm. At nite, I ate rice w/ roasted duck and soup. And at 9pm, I went to McDonald to have french fries & hot fudge - and 2 pcs of chicken nuggets from my son's happy meal. hahahaha... See?? Oh ya.. forgot to mention the watermelon and orange juice. Kekekeke.... what was my stomach made from???!!?
Today, it is more controllable. I only drank a cup of tea w/ sugar for breakfast and a piece of biscuit when I felt my stomach was growling and for lunch, I ate the noodle w/ one big piece of chilli fish - very nice and soup. No snack and wait for the dinner tonite, which I haven't planned it yet... hahaha... Jalat sia...
Oh ya, my throat was pain again this morning when I woke up and despite of drinking lots of water, I still feel the pain. Hope it could get better. I'm craving for ayam penyet.. but still haven't find someone to accompany me, hehehehehe....
K'lah, get back to work! Still lots of things to do today.. Ciao!

Nice day

today feel so happy..
first, my boss approved my leave for next week...Im going to my friend's wedding
We're planning to go to SF first since its only 1 hour away from SF..so we'll stay in SF 1 night, then on Sunday going for the wedding reception.
I just cant wait to eat the crab...its sooo good....nyummy...
Anyway, today was not really that busy at the end of day...managed to finish up inventory, even thought still not in excel report yet, but at least i catch up with the documents already..
And the final nice thing happen is when I got home...I got a present..a nice short poem and nice pics, nice shirt, and bookmarker!!
God how much I love those...thanks a lot!!! mucahh
I straight away use the bookmarker and put the pics and put on the new shirt and hat...hehehe
Miss the happy happy times..=(
but memories are memories..just treasure the memories, and pray to God that it wont be memories only, but like dream come true? hehehehe

Our love

I know that someday
I'll get used to the fact
That we're not together anymore
And that maybe we wont be..
ever again.
Time will tell.
In the meantime, though,
You may be away from my arms,
but you will never be
very far from my heart.

I know the love will never leave
There are too many memories,
there were so many precious moments
and wonderful times
to ever try to forget..

And I just want you to know
that I will remember
for the rest of my days,
how you helped me find
some happiness and some truths
And how you opened some beautiful doors

I'll never forget
how good it was
to share a part of my life
with yours...

Disappointment

It's not been a good weekend for me. Especially yesterday. Felt like really having bad day for myself. Disappointment over something, led to unhappiness. I gulped down all the unhappiness and blow the puff of my life away - like my friend did ;P And at the end, I knew toilet is my home and toilet bowl is my favourite hangout place to go and of course, my bed. hahahaha...
I kept vomiting my stomach' fills out 'til my gastric came again. So suffering. Couldn't find the medicine from the doctor, but managed taking one table of Mylanta and it helped a lot. In the morning, like many Muslims do, they ate before 6am during this fasting month and so did I hehehe.. I ate the porridge from the kitchen *I think my husband made it for me last nite, but I was felt asleep before got any chance to eat it up.. and then continued my sleep.
This morning I ate my breakfast in the canteen and ate the medicine prescribed by the doctor last time and now I just feel drowsy and write this slowly. hehehe...
I feel better but not completely good yet. Still need lots of rest to recharge my energy and my mind back. It's very suffering to get drunk but yet I still did so. Stupid rite? Maybe I couldn't find anybody to share my unhappiness and yet the drink is always there asking for my accompany =P I must be prepared that one day my liver will get angry w/ me. Perhaps I must remove them from top of my head to somewhere that far or couldn't be seen. When will the time come? Ciao!

Lantern Festival

Today is the day!! The day of eating mooncake, play w/ the lantern (paper or the one w/ music on by the battery). But yesterday nite, my sis-in-law has already played w/ the paper lantern in front of our house. She also bought 'kembang api', the one w/ sound and played herself.. kekeke.. *She is working today, that's why she played w/ it first yesterday - yesterday was her off day.
Oh ya, my son accompanied her too.. while I went to sleep first.. hahaha... so tiring...
Yesterday after work, I hurriedly went back home and took a bath. The dinner was ready. It was the food I mentioned in the previous blog and I enjoyed eating myself.. kekekeke.... while my hubby went meeting his 5th Uncle in the coffee shop. After finished my dinner, I walked out and looked for my mother-in law, sis-in-law, and my son who went out before me. Then we just walked around and saw some toys, accessories, etc. On the way back, we went back together and my hubby told me that he will do the job *changed his mind again.. haiyah... lucky this time changed for the better.. He said he would give himself 2 months time to learn about the new job and hopefully he can do it!
We reached home about 9pm, and I watched my TV series and went to bed around 10.40pm at nite. zzz... zzz...
And today... is FRIDAY!!!! Waaaa... so fastttt!!!! Oh ya.. my bro's son b'day party will be held tonite (instead of tomorrow nite) and I will go to his house later directly after work while my hubby and son will go themselves from home. We may go and play the lantern in the multi-storey carpark like what we did last year.. how time flies... Once in a while we turn becoming children too to play this type of thing.. but that was what still remaining in my memories... good memories that always remain in my heart.. =)